Sunday, April 3, 2022

An update

I don't know how to start this post so let me just start off by saying "I miss you!" It's almost a year since I bought my own domain and posted here. Looking back, I remember the feeling of being so excited about this new journey of online journaling but then life happened and fucked me up in so many different and terrible ways. (Sorry for swearing, I can't think of any clean words to express my feelings.)

This post is some sort of "life lately" update though I'm not sure if anyone cared enough to read my blog. But, ugh, I'm doing this for my self. I don't care if there is only me in here.

So about what I said that life fucked me up in so many different and terrible ways? Well, it's true. I cried a lot of tears and got my heart broken last year 2021. And I am still broken hearted now. Why, you ask. Hmmm, maybe some other time I'm going to talk about it. My heart is not ready. 

What I really want to talk about is how I am keeping myself alive and my sanity intact despite all that. 

I rediscovered hobbies and interests I loved doing and I am so thankful for the free therapy they give me. In case you are wondering, no I am not talking about alcohol or drugs, but yes I am talking about reading books and listening to music. 

I've been starting to binge read again and drown my self with music and I am loving every bit of it. Yes, I am still a broken mess but it comforts me to know that instead of crying every day, I can always pick a book or put my earphones on. 

I want to talk about these 2 in detail so I'm going to make 2 different posts about them in the future. I really hope I can commit to posting though. But yeah, I'll try my best. Like I always do.

Ciao for now!